i fall for girls too fast

it's true. the good part is i get to experience a state of emotional longing, much akin to "love" minus the actually knowing the girl part. the bad part is i experience a state of emotional longing, much akin to "love." minus the actually knowing the girl part.
i have been spiraling down into a kind of madness. searching for jobs, applying for jobs i like, getting rejected from jobs i am over-qualified for (for reasons outside of any logic this universe subscribes to), and on top of that all my bizzare unfulfilling interactions with girls... it is enough to force one into unwanted insanity. i mean, i didn't want to be insane--it was circumstance that signed me up. my emotions have become (or have they always been) a car without brakes careening through a tight alleyway, throwing up sparks and always set to crash and burn. but what saves me is my uncanny ability to achieve happiness the very next day, as if no trying pathos was suffered the previous day, as the chirping birds still sound so sweet and the fresh air from my window still carries the scent of flowers and greening leaves... how foolish one would be to STAY in an emotional slump when the very act of LIVING is a gift unto itself, one that would suit one poorly to hide from or ignore.
but back to girls. strategies end in failure. even if one thinks they are fool-proof, like some kind of game-plan for human behavior (the very idea disgusts me on multiple levels). playing different personalities end in failure. even if the current one is not working out for the particular task (you are yourself, and to nullify oneself in place of a created self is an act of murder--one should treasure the personality that is the product of his history). so "be yourself" still rings true, no matter what others will tell you, and no matter how many times it feels like "yourself" is always the wrong tool for the task. i mean, can't you still bang a nail in with a wrench? it's a bit harder, and definitely more awkward, but it still works.