sitting in a chair and staring at a monitor might be celebrated as the new modern pasttime, but for me it gets old fast. i have things to do but my mind is arrested by tedium. there are actually many things for me to research, nearly too much, but i am not confident that anything i do will be implemented, or for that matter, appreciated. what am i to do if everything i produce, often through some travail, is criticized and kicked back to the drawing board instead of supported and viewed optimistically as a work-in-progress. as a scientist (or as close as i can get to one), i understand the need for meticulousness and planning when it comes to beginning a project. however, i feel like i am working alone and forced to report to one who doesn't even try to understand my work. instead, he barks corrections at me and goes off on tangents about WWII and the CIA. he still refuses to understand the technology (which i've offered to explain more times than i can count), and this is a detriment to the progression of the project. he also can't stand staying within the bounds of my papers, and insists on wildly speculating about all sorts of ideas, sometimes not relevant to the project at all (such as unmanned army spy planes).
given all this, why would i desire to continue working hard? frustration is something that a strong mind should be able to combat effectively enough to reinstill some comfort. but we all have our thresholds. i shouldn't have to fight for my superior's attention, i shouldn't have to explain things to him multiple times, i shouldn't have to rewrite the same proposal 6 times to get approval.
the atmosphere here is unnecessarily oppressive.
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